wonderwall

new guitar new amplifier new mobile phone new song to me woho!

if you dont understand please xxxx off

It is always good to have time to be alone to think and write. Without any topics without any rules, without any pressure we can write or talk very freely. Not just expressing ourselves but it's also a kind of self-appreciation? alright we all need to be valued in certain extent. thanks for everyone who reads this rubbish or try to leave me comment but even without comment i think i will keep on and most important is that is a place totally belong to me not anyone. and if you don't understand please piss off.

now i am sitting alone in a cafe with my iced cappuccino and there is a very charming girl sitting right in front of me. i can't help just staring on her. And on the other side there is an annoying agent talking with her client about the insurance plan or something. It is funny to observe someone's behavior like that as u are just like a person who is not existing in this place.

Emails - what I mostly spend my working time on it. but what it is about besides some words or numbers? I think it is nothing. It is about money only. it is funny to think why we need to earn so much money. it is meaningless to tell how many digits in your account if you have no way to use it. Really no way? I can get many toys I like if i am rich as hell! we all keep working and striving for our future. to buy houses, cars, stocks and bonds and so on. but what is next? more houses, more cars more stocks and bonds? it cannot fill your heart anyway. (maybe most people does) I do prefer spending more time with someone i love (family and friends). what i found is it is always wrong if you emphasize love more than doing it. or love must be announced? that is why i tag "what is love anyway" here.

so now apart from those childhood friends, all sentimental animals come along together and form a rubbish team. and what we want is just fun. yup just for fun. bought a 5k Godin A6 Ultra electric plus acoustic guitar recently with taxi! woho Amp will be delivery this friday hopefully we will play something differently! again if you dont understand please piss off.

too much love will kill you

I'm just the pieces of the man I used to be
Too many bitter tears are raining down on me
I'm far away from home
And I've been facing this alone
For much too long
I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me
About growing up and what a struggle it would be
In my tangled state of mind
I've been looking back to find
Where I went wrong
Too much love will kill you
If you can't make up your mind
Torn between the lover
And the love you leave behind
You're headed for disaster
'cos you never read the signs
Too much love will kill you
Every time
I'm just the shadow of the man I used to be
And it seems like there's no way out of this for me
I used to bring you sunshine
Now all I ever do is bring you down
How would it be if you were standing in my shoes
Can't you see that it's impossible to choose
No there's no making sense of it
Every way I go I'm bound to lose
Too much love will kill you
Just as sure as none at all
It'll drain the power that's in you
Make you plead and scream and crawl
And the pain will make you crazy
You're the victim of your crime
Too much love will kill you
Every time
Too much love will kill you
It'll make your life a lie
Yes, too much love will kill you
And you won't understand why
You'd give your life, you'd sell your soul
But here it comes again
Too much love will kill you
In the end...
In the end.

when i find you

我想所有下雨天 我可這樣凝望你
我想跟你明日昨天 一起吻晨曦
我心一向沒變遷 我不當是遊戲
世間爭先要新鮮 我只要你
難數清愛你幾多 只知每日更多
而你是燃亮這生的歌
靈魂再沒還欠什麼 當找到你
如若話別日子不知怎過
我想於世上每天 你准我在旁伴你
我想跟你同行互牽 一起笑和悲
這雙肩膊為你堅 有風有浪仍護你
世間爭先要新鮮 我只要你
我想一起過陰天兩天和晴天

general

very lazy recently haven't wrote anything for so long. actually nothing really worth to mark down.(really nothing? you ask heart?) generally everything goes well, got the first payment(so plan to buy the first electric guitar! woho!), bought new house thought not by my money and my left ankle is much more better than before now can jump again. really not bad huh.

just thinking of one thing, taxi forwards what fat yuen posted in facebook that is "a sweet and wonderful honeymoon" and he said will diu 9 me if i do the same. (yup he really used this word) people generally accept that that is everyone should have a century wedding and announce to everybody who loves who. sometimes it works but sometimes it just like a show without any passion and make it become meaningless. maybe we are just jealous and we will somehow do the same action? i suppose not. whatever i wont do that pretentious things which waste money and time. i mean if only for a show i definitely refuse to do so. should love be announced? maybe marriage not represents love it involves many things. or just find someone who is suitable to be together? sorry i am nw.

i like to use general as the topic of the passage as i received so many emails using this word as topic from clients recently. so what you suppose to get from general conversation? of course nothing.

"There are many things that i would like to say to you but I don't know how!" <--- very good line from Wonderwall by Oasis.

2009了

2009年的第一篇寫的東西，沒有主題，沒有構思，最好寫下剛發生的鎖碎事。

第一件是肥丸大婚了，當日做兄弟的我悶了一整天，大部份時間都在等，但可以告訴我，等什麼呢？看到依舊喜歡社交的「好仔」在取笑某人時我真的感到很難過，因為他似乎沒變。他面容扭曲的表情和歇斯底里的笑聲讓人感到很不安。對不起，我應該將我的焦點放在一對新人身上，可是我比較對真實的事感興趣，「好仔」的表情的真的，肥丸的美好婚禮不能算假，但亦屬流於面表，很多事情都很造作，難道說句我愛你就會一生一世嗎？但不要怪他，因為這事本來都是這樣。碰到一些舊同學，大家都是談些鎖碎事，最常聽到是誰結婚誰生仔的話題﹝對於我這種單身寡仔是一種無奈﹞。當日很平淡的過去了，很累很無聊，早上六點出發到晚上十二點歸家。

第二件比較開心的，我帶了狗狗遊車河，從家出發到東涌。狗狗很聽話，全程都很安定坐下，像人乘車沒兩樣。偶然在路上旁邊的車看到我車裡有狗也會向我笑一下，像跟我說你的狗很乖。多虧我弟弟把牠調教得那麼服從，要不然的話還未到沙田我已經撐不住要節返，更不用說東涌。很安全的到達了，會合了Moyee後，幫牠繫上頸帶，帶水，報紙，便開始散步了。東涌的地方不錯，很空曠很舒適，只是離市區遠了點吧。對不起，我沒找短燊，因為一想起他的屋比狗窩還亂已打消找他的念頭，更何況我是約好了Moyee呢。﹝最後回程狗狗終撐不住，嘔了，我對牠不起，讓牠受苦了。﹞

最後是發生在今天，家人說要買樓了。買的是我現在隔壁的一間而已，因為地形問題很早以前已經想買，但業主不出售，直至近來收到消息此樓盤已放地產，所以我爸媽便二話不說的買下。訂金已付，現在應該沒什麼事情想了，他們將會忙於設計新居，而我呢？名義上樓是我的，但我從來都不表態什麼我想做什麼我不想做，原因很簡單，只要他們喜歡，那就行了。